to live in silence
here awake and yet asleep
on the borderline
tween living and spirit world
it is a tightrope we walk
Month: September 2013
a tanka: entering the fray
I’m losing the weight
cleaning out my old system
down to fighting trim
get myself in the right place
must soon reenter the fray
from Conversations in Sicily by Elio Vittorini
Still smoking I went outside. Cra, cra, cra, shouted the ravens flying through the ashen sky. I went down into the street, went along the street of that Sicily which was no longer a journey, but motionless, and I smoked and cried.
“Ah! Ah! He’s crying! Why is he crying?” shouted the crows among themselves, following behind me.
I continued my walk without answering, and an old black woman followed behind me too. “Why are you crying?” she asked.
I didn’t respond, and I went on, smoking, crying; and a tough guy who was waiting on the piazza with his hands in his pockets asked me too: “Why are you crying?”
He too followed behind me, and still crying, I passed in front of a church. The priest saw us, me and those following me, and asked the old woman, the tough guy, the crows: “Why is this man crying?”
He joined us, and some street urchins saw us and exclaimed:
“Look! He’s smoking and crying!””
They also said: “He’s crying because of the smoke!” And they followed behind me with the others, bringing their game along too.
In the same way a barber followed behind me and a carpenter, a man in rags, a girl with her head wrapped in a scarf, a second man in rags. They saw me and they asked: “Why are you crying?” Or they asked those who were already following me: “Why is he crying?” And they all became my followers: a cart driver, a dog, men of Sicily, women of Sicily, and finally a Chinaman. “Why are you crying?” they asked.
But I had no response to give them. I wasn’t crying for any reason. Deep down I wasn’t even crying; I was remembering; and in the eyes of others, my remembering looked like crying.
translated by Alane Salierno Mason
Jack Pagano
he had a laugh
that came from deep in his belly
and a smile
that could light a room
he fell down my cellar stairs
drunk one New Year’s Eve
when I was playing Good Samaritan
not having been with them
but taking him in at the side door
they had nowhere else to go
Kevin said
please Lenny take Jack
and Jack wobbled
fell
no one holding him
blood coming out of his ear
the hospital
a concussion
he could have died
but he lived to work on cars
at Herman’s Garage
blocks away from my parents’ house
many years later
I found out from Herman’s grandson
that Jack was in Florida
a mechanic still
did he marry Concetta
does he still laugh from the belly
would he know what became of Kevin
my connection lost
by a few years
and several cars
I wonder some nights
I see the faces
of those I ran with
his cousin Richie giggling
Maryann’s dark eyes
Joey’s scarred face
Kevin’s muscles
Jack could have been the link
lost forever somewhere in Florida
and me with the ghosts
thousands of miles
away