xmas trees: for Steve

I still remember
chopping down that pine
in some farmer’s yard
after midnight
and dragging it back
to be our xmas tree
that year in Ohio
when we were young
and escapades like that
were our forte
we thought we would live
forever
and now cancer
limits your forever
to 6 months or so
and xmas trees
live in memory
until I join you
on timeless escapades
in a heaven
we both
do not believe in

Greta in Darkness by Louise Glück

This is the world we wanted.
All who would have seen us dead
are dead. I hear the witch’s cry
break in the moonlight through a sheet
of sugar. God rewards.
Her tongue shrivels into gas . . .

Now, far from women’s arms
and memory of women, in our father’s hut
we sleep, are never hungry.
Why do I not forget?
My father bars the door, bars harm
from this house, and it is years.

No one remembers. Even you, my brother,
summer afternoons you look at me as though
you meant to leave,
as though it never happened.
But I killed for you. I see armed firs,
the spires of that gleaming kiln—

Nights I turn to you to hold me
but you are not there.
Am I alone? Spies
hiss in the stillness. Hansel,
we are there still and it is real, real,
that black forest and the fire in earnest.