Hearts of Stone

listening to
Southside Johnny
this morning
and remembering nights
of whiskey
and albums like this
long ago
these songs
can’t revive
those feelings
memories
lie dormant
a lifetime ago
and here
on my balcony
the sun brilliant
in the sky
Tahin will soon
drive to the bazaar
with me along
for the ride
and later
I will listen
to Joshua Bell
Sarah Chang
fresh figs
pears peaches
on the table
peanuts too
another world
I live in
far from whiskey
and the need
to dull
or heighten
the pain

from my balcony

children laughing below
out back
on the lawns
the sprinklers working
overtime
in the front
and the wine
in my glass
in hand
warms what’s left
of my heart
there is peace
here
my neighbor’s acts
of kindness
the plate of dolma
the fruit
from the bazaar
and the cover
on my scooter
the driver’s grin
when I say
iyi akşamlar
the invitation
to go fishing
on weekends
in such a short time
to be at home
I lean back
in the chair
on my balcony
my feet up
a breeze caresses
my face
and I doze off
letting memories
of the past
drift away

memories of you: for K

there was a woman
on the train
who kept brushing
her long long hair
tossing it back
over her shoulder
the way I’ve seen
you do
sitting in your house shirt
in your bedroom
the same motion
before you would blow
a kiss
my way
suddenly
I am lost
in memories
of you