the cat curls
in my lap
as I watch the trains
roll by
while the sun peeks
through the clouds
over the hills
to the east
another morning
another day
here
in Aliağa
other writing
a revisit as another year passes: this business of mine
the well is deep
and I ponder it often
especially in early morning hours
a specialty of mine
there is a lesson to learn
and I could should learn it
so I am looking sideways
upside down
then backwards
a complicated process
this business of mine
just trying to figure out
all of it
before the ink runs dry
once again: the promise of things to come
in the glint
of your eyes
the hint
of a smile
on those full lips
one hand caressing
your hair
the other firmly placed
on a hip
the tilt of your shoulders
almost a shrug
there
here
the promise
of things to come
on listening to Carmen McRae
come on in
from the cold
on that long way home
and Carmen
gives me wings
needed to fly
home
to New York
even if only
in my mind
things I shouldn’t do anymore: a slightly revised list
run to catch the metro
another will be along soon
and there’s no one waiting
at home anyway
drink more than one bottle of wine
the mouth gets numb
and you can’t taste it
or tell if it’s red or white
spend more than 15 minutes
playing solitaire
and try not to cheat
accept losses more than wins
eat hot dogs
for breakfast
that’s why they invented
cornflakes and yogurt
tell stories to people
half the time
they don’t listen
and it just makes me
homesick for my friends
talk to myself
in public
someday someone
will know enough English
to punch me in the mouth
display so many of your pictures
it’s pointless to have them
staring at me
from the bookshelves
love someone unselfishly
because next time
I’m going to be a little selfish
and expect the woman
to love me a little bit, too
old habits
an old habit
when things seem
to be going
as planned
and life smiles
on your wary heart
even the cat
sensitive to these things
notices change
in the airchange
vocabulary lesson
cut loose means
to let go
as in letting go of a person
of a group of people
one’s feelings change
not for the better
or the worse
just different
bar none means
without exception
I cut them loose
bar none
crumbling means
falling apart
not quickly
but gradually
as if termites
infected the house
the walls began to crumble
so that one had to abandon
that particular domicile
or one’s home
the place of residence
negotiations meaning
a compromise
trying to find the middle ground
if at all possible
when people are phony
it means not real, fake
than there can be no relief
or let up
and the only consolation
is a pat on the back
a sorry, sport
better luck next time
doomed means
it is over
to lose forever
whatever one had
or was under the illusion
of having
has become scarce
as in disappeared
leaving a void
or perhaps causing
a moral crisis
which can only be resolved
or concluded
by exiting stage left
or right
whichever leads
to one’s safe haven
a victory of sorts
sometimes you stand still
rather than walk on
and it works out
maybe not quite like
the way you anticipated
but not quite as bad
as it could have been
a victory of sorts
in a world where victory
is not just infrequent
but fleeting when it comes
so thank whomever whatever
you thank when you give thanks
and check out train schedules
for early departures
the next day
best remembered
in retrospect
is how I’m best remembered
present tense often
not easy to bear
especially here
outside my natural element
which is not to say
I won’t have another glass
of whatever they’re pouring
wherever I am
before moving farther
down the line
letting memory
take care of itself
your name
rolls off my tongue
down to my chest
deep in my heart
echoing in its chambers
calling to me