on calendars & time

the cleaning people
keep changing
the date
on my wall
calendar
before
I can do it
myself
not a race
or a reminder
just courtesy
and I
too grateful
for their
always cheerful
service
cannot say
don’t rush
the passage
of time
for I
am not
anxious
to see it
slip away
quite so quickly
one day
at a time

on the cusp of January: approaching the new year in Izmir 2015

with trepidation
remembering
my mother
whose taste
for January
was less
than palatable
sour
in one’s mouth
fear
mixed with
anxiety
too many
deaths
in this month
a realization
later come by
and as I stand
facing the end
of one year
the beginning
of another
honor those ghosts
who stand
with me
this night
and drink
enough whiskey
to forget
my name
so as to
sally forth
blameless
from darkness
into the light

where I come from

is not
where
I’m going
a place
of departure
like a train
station
track 2
all aboard
for points
west
east
north south
no matter
footsteps
in the hall
doors
open close
another day
here
in the city
where I live
but not
where I’m from
biding time
till the whıstle
blows

Christmas in Izmir

I passed
on going to
a movie
in 3D
with strangers
instead
set the table
linguine
with cauliflower
white wine
extra treats
for the cat
loaded music
on the DVD player
Sibelius Aaron Copland
Joshua Bell Sarah Chang
and Miles
Sketches of Spain
greeted
the ghosts
of Christmases
past
who joined me
and peace
reigned
in my heart
here
in Izmir
this Christmas