the pain
in the legs
the ache
in the heart
the chill
in the bones
so far
so very far
from home
pain
from 90 North by Randall Jarrell
I reached my North and it had meaning.
Here at the actual pole of my existence,
Where all that I have done is meaningless,
Where I die or live by accident alone–
Where, living or dying, I am still alone;
Here where North, the night, the berg of death
Crowd me out of the ignorant darkness,
I see at last that all the knowledge
I wrung from the darkness–that the darkness flung me–
Is worthless as ignorance: nothing comes from nothing,
The darkness from the darkness. Pain comes from the darkness
And we call it wisdom. It is pain.
each day this pain
each day
this pain
my heart
thinking
of you
“out of the beloved’s lip” by Ahmet Haşim
Out of the beloved’s lip
a carat of fire is this carnation
my soul knows it, its pain
As it falls, it’s hit around.
butterflies reeking of anger
my soul wheeling round. . .
translated by Murat Nemet-Nejat
Apprentice Wanted by Refik Durbaş
My hands have a gift for art, Master
My language for cursing, my heart for pain
Is death all I get
All I get, Master?
Which way is love, Master
Which way is grief
Is solitude all I get
All I get, Master?
Which way is away, Master
Which way is home
Is longing all I get
All I get, Master?
translated by Şehnaz Tahir-Gürçağlar