like some seafarer
of old
casting off
to return
once again
for the first time
to this place
called home
searching
where something is
not knowing where
something is
shouldn’t keep one
from looking
for it
my heart
there
it goes
once again
into uncharted
waters
adrift
in a boat
without
sail rudder
or oars
following
the current
wherever
it takes
me
from At Play in the Fields of the Lord by Peter Matthiessen: the first two paragraphs
In the jungle, during one night in each month, the moths did not come to lanterns; through the black reaches of the outer night, so it was said, they flew toward the full moon.
So it was said. He could not recall where he had heard it, or from whom; it had been somewhere on the rivers of Brazil. He had never watched the lanterns at the time of the full moon; when he remembered it was always the dark of the moon or beyond the tropics. Yet the idea of the moths in the high darkness, straining upward, filled him with longing, and at these times he would know that he had not found what he was looking for, nor come closer to discovering what it was.