there are moments
when the past comes crashing
through the door
like some unruly relative
demanding attention
there are people I’d like to forget
but their ghosts refuse to listen
and they pop up in conversation
some trigger evoking them
collars turned up
cigarettes dangling from lips
hot stuff devils on biceps
eyes hooded, suspicious
they were not good boys
doing things not accepted
by codes other than their own
there is remorse in my heart
for deeds done, witnessed
scars that have faded in time
but still pencil thin lines remain
in places that substitute for a soul
some day atonement beyond what was given
will be expected
and all the good will be stacked up
against the bad
they understood this
did not care one way or the other
not believing in anything beyond the hell
they suffered through
and though there is no pity in my heart
there is understanding
and if it turns out
I stand beside them once again
I will not flinch
when the whip comes down
tough is what you can take
Kevin said once
not what you can give
a lesson I learned years ago
on asphalt pavement
on barroom floors
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Leonard Durso 
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Remembering the pack 8: me
I relate to every word. It seems like a lifetime ago.
I don’t know about you but it was several lifetimes ago for me. But still somewhat fresh in my mind.
It was 30 years ago. I hear you. Sometimes it pops up fresh and I remember it well. Oddly I even remember a few names. But so much has happened since then.
That’s the funny thing about life: it goes on whether you want it to or not.
You’re one hell of a good story`teller . . .
Thank you, Peter.
“scars that have faded in time
but still pencil thin lines remain”
…..here in your words
I have truly enjoyed this series.
Thank you very much, Lillian. Your comments are much appreciated.
I really like this – how all these loose ends are pulled together and make sense that way. It has been fun to see some of these poems I messed coming to the party a little late.
You’re always welcome whenever you come. And thank you for that lovely comment.